Happiness is like Drowing

I feel this sense of overwhelming happiness burning through my skin:

A remarkable flooding of gratitude-

Where I have been thanking heaven for all the love I have.

Yet in delight, my core bears angst:

Nervousness and apprehension ‘round fate’s malicious plan.

Life is just waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Then again, happiness is much like drowning:

A peaceable surrender against the waves.

Relief and reprieve from the exhaustion of treading water-

The choice of suffocation is the joy I feel by means of

True love and affection.

I love her more than the fight to keep my head above water.