Thursday, June 13, 2013

Love sickness

What starts as a flutter between my skin and ribs,
Beating to the rhythm of my fixation,
Concludes with an aggravating assault on the heart.
A gnawing of sorts, upon the inner lining of my gut-
Like a mountain has lodged itself in the crick of my throat.
So much so, that words can’t be spoken
But read in tiny tender lines of fervent poetry.

Love sickness is by far and away the most arduous contagion.
Infecting the entirety of my intelligence
Until I am left emptied.
Hollowed of sanity
Of rational
Of lucidity.

In spite, the sentiment of infatuation
Satiates the nourishment of sensitivity-
The catalyst to this pestilence…
That which I would never exterminate.
For regardless of the suffering,
Falling in love has never harmed a soul.


Thursday, June 06, 2013

I am Baptized

Inadequacy pools in miniature puddles
Slowly carving out cavities in every cell of self-assurance.
Before long, an ocean has collected
And dissolved completely.

With tide polished bareness,
I suppose I can begin anew.

For what is baptism?
But a collapse in standing and

A culmination of cleansing…  

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Musings


Muse, you move me
With an inundation of words
Flowing out from within me.
I suppose,
As the saying goes
 “It never rains, yet it pours.”

I’d thank you for
Your inadvertent inspirations
Though it means I’m now dejected
As words, when written
Signify
My sorrowful admissions.

One Word


Is it possible you wound me even in a single word?
The power you have over me is really quite absurd.
And frankly I can see this unrequited love affair
Brings nothing short of one-sided, of which you’re unaware-
I am sure of it, despite incessant captivation.
And so the story goes with hidden transmissions
In verse and rhyme
I hide behind
My childish infatuation.

Monday, January 02, 2012

all will be right

I once wrote a letter entitled “Goodbye, because I love you.” And I had every intention of it being my last. Yet I was saved many times over by loved ones, and mentors, by rainbows, and crayons, even once by a stranger with a flashlight and happenstance.

The bravery lies not in my courage to stand, but in those that have fought to sustain me. They too have faced rejection and judgment from those that have wounded.

But when God stands before them they shall see in my lesions their hatred and error and know that intolerance is that which they’ll reap.

I know God loves me. I know he loves you.
Most importantly I know he loves those that have hatred for me.

In the end,  all will be right.

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Thursday, September 29, 2011

Usher In

The warmth of summer holds fast for at least another day. I marvel at all the change the weather ushers in …and perhaps how loved ones and memories flow through me like the course of seasons.

I long for tender recollections and the unbending relief that words carry. Perchance I will find inspiration in the future grey impending. Until then I am nevertheless contented with the vanishing glow of warmth upon my skin;

Vaguely inviting and persistent

Reminiscent of acquaintances long since preceding.